Unfairness..... and me being selfish.

6 March 2011

..... Okay, I know I have not updated my blog yesterday as I was supposed to, but my mom was restricting me from using the Internet yesterday because of the fact that I had to study for some stupid exam. God, damn it, it was such a boring day for me yesterday. And to add my depression, my little brother had his birthday yesterday.

Did you know that whenever little brothers or sisters had they're birthday celebrated, they're older siblings felt lonely? Yeah, well most of them are. There are some older siblings that felt happy to see the little ones happy. Don't get me wrong, I do like seeing my little brother happy. It's just that... I felt a certain feeling inside whenever glanced at the birthday cake. Want to know it is? Unfairness.

Because last year, we didn't celebrate my birthday. And to add matters worse, my mom remembered my birthday only after a few hours she went to work. And she didn't give me any presents. I know, I'm being selfish, but I can't help it. Who wouldn't? Well, at least my friends remembered my birthday, but my family didn't. Now that's bad. Really bad.

I'm even more depressed because I noticed that my siblings cared more about themselves rather than their big sister. That's a bit mean of them. Oh well, life's a bitch. Got to get used to it.